ideal

last week, i forgot to bring my nano to sch. man oh man, i told myself. i used that to keep myself awake 80% of my bus trips. sigh i did alright.! anyway, again like the previous post, its related to the bus trips.
thankfully i didnt have 2 struggle so much with my eyes...phew! as i sat @ the front seat which faced the back of the bus, it was then i realised more than what i had imagined. i felt the whole world or rather the show was @ the palm of my hand. i could see everything; faces, expressions and all. moreover, i did not have my nano with me.
here's where it gets interesting. why isit that in life we wana be so comfortable and our fronts facing their backs? in addtion to that, we further isolate ourselves and listen to anything that may try to attract our attention. do we intend 2 be couch potatoes? is our true desire to avoid calamities as far as possible.?
dots dots dots i will say...
but as far as we would love the idea of "paradise" with no problems n calamities, such things cannot hide from us 4ever. daydreaming is idealistic but not realistic.
and 2 conclude this of, the question of "where are we?" , should actually bring us to our individual self, becomes more like "what is the ideal myself?"

its been a whole new semester to me now yea.
new committments, new modules to study and so on. life still goes on , that i knw. but i wonder sometimes. i ask myself in my own conscience this question, "where am i going?" or perhaps a more precise question would be, "where am i ?"
most of these answers would normally be answered logically and retardly like, "ur here la then!" or maybe "what u mean by that?". one would definitely have said, "you're in singapore la ah yo..". here's the best part, " why u ask this question wan ha? "
yes for certain i knw this question may sound ridiculous and should not be asked in the first place.
well, this question places itself in the conscience of young adults and teens actually.
what happens when u have set aside everything only silence urself to society. that is to say,...u run ur world; ur rules, ur play, ur government. ?
does make u wonder huh..
75% of the time i take the bus home listening to my nano @ the same time. as it's life plays its own. i sit @ the window seat and watch everything go by. it would feel that my eyes have seen everything in a slow stance, well pace if thats what u mean. yet i feel so numb to the fact there are so many things going on outside the bus. this bus...where isit suppose to bring me to?

so i was thinking really really hard about this. if feeling numb and totally ignorant of what society has been doing all this time, then how are we to run ourselves?