rights...

heez...
dont knw whats gotten into me these days. somewhat begging myself to stop this nonsense...
my dad came back on personal leave, spend some quality time with my dad.... finally! BUT!!!! not as i'd hope it'll be though. sad. i had plans to exercise with my dad together first then we could other relaxing things... well it WAS the plan la...
now knowing me dad that he likes to drag things till that cant be done, and with that smile on his face makes it difficult to get upset at him. after persuading him to do so... little did i knw something...
he forgot to bring back his shoes! that was one...
he injured himself... "sia la!!! whoa lao!!!" those were the first few thoughts that zapped across my mind...
i knew there was nothing more to say...
the day of my country's birthday, i was to either go gymming, swimming or play badminton with him, i ended up running on my own... i had no other comments. dont ask me why or how, at that moment i just had to get some fresh air lor...couldnt help it la. i knw age has caught up with my dad. and knowing me dad is on personal leave, ...ah i dont knw la. what i do knw is that my dad is very sporty. thats the gd thing i like. well, i seriously miss my dad for not making me run on a wild goose chase. havnt gotten that in a long while man. i have lost my idea generation on what i could do with dad. just dont want him sitting around like that. play some serious sports with me lor...im not blaming him or for that matter la but u knw u just wana spend "that" time! i have no clue what to do now. i had intended to spend some time with my dad first b4 i could step on the gas peddle for my upcoming exams. i guess there wont be a need to la.
to pple out there, i knw there are times when ur closed ones are nearby n u just want that time alone with that someone special to you. but when that someone gives something that makes u ..well...take the heat within you, u just put up a front that says its alright, no force of persuasion is required. but u jolly well knw that's not possible...in fact when ur alone again, u just wished u could just tear yaself apart.
at some point in time, i did wish i had a girlfriend. a partner who is willing to understand u fully and spend that time with me under such circumstances... im not saying and implying that im desperate now, pls dont get the wrong idea pple, that would be against my principles to do so. im willing to wait for the right person to drop by in my life. but at this point in time, if u pple ever asked what was the colour of my life now...it;ll have to be dull grey... no black, no white... the life i took has made me to become a somewhat anti-social person. etc...

words have no right to describe me ...